Dillon & Delon's Bday! The twins!

On the 26th Dec, went for my beloved Didi's birthday:) But I forget that he had a twin brother!! OMG!! Such an idiot.

Look at the brothers! Machiam photocopy sia their face. Worst, they sound alike!

Y1s :) HAHA

Bake didi eggtarts for his birthday although I had already shared a present with isabelle. I just love to bake things for my love ones nowadays. <3

Feel so stupid and paiseh because I forget that there's Delon as well! As I don't really know him, haha I just know that he is dillon's brother! OMG! That explains why the table only put LON, because both of their names ends with LON. HAHA! Feel so guilty. Must to something already! haha!

DIDI<3

After his birthday party, went shopping with bbg:) Brought myself a pair of shoe:) Got new shoe already:) Love talking with my bbg as we always had the same mindset:) Must really cherish all these moments:) <3 Love all my beloveds:)

Christmas~~

Kind of celebrated advance Christmas with my beloved class on 15th dec which was the last the of school before school holiday starts. We played secret santas:) Really love my awesome class! Bunch of nice and funny people! I don't wanna change class:( So I shall let the photos take over right now:)

With the boys! :)

My girls:)

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On the 23rd dec, went to my bbg, Evan's house for Christmas party:) I enjoyed myself, gifting opening time and games session was awesome. Most of us overnight and I guess everyone had a blast:)

I bake these cupcake for Evan bbg's party:)

Not normal cupcakes ok! Its RAINBOW:)

Surprisingly, she bake cupcakes for me as well<3 Because she said that she wanna cheer me up as I'm quite emotional after the death of my uncle. Love ya bbg<3

With our presents:):)

Gift opening time! HAHA! Everyone didn't know who gave them their presents as it was like a lucky draw kind of thing. where we put all our presents under the Christmas Tree and label them, followed by drawing of numbers by ourselves and see which one we get:)

Work during Christmas eve, slept at home during Christmas and bake egg tarts:) As usual, I don't go out during Christmas for every year.

R.I.P my beloved uncle, 17th dec

I just realised that I didn't really took much photos with my uncle. This is like the only photo that I could find where we took months ago during my aunt's 60th birthday.

From young till now, my uncle is just like my dad to me. Why? We stayed 2 units away from each other and my uncle and aunt do not have any kids and I'm just like their daughter. They really dotes me a lot.

Upon hearing the death of his, I totally couldn't accept the fact that he is gone. I broke down immediately. None can ever understand the pain that I'm having. Whenever I closed my eyes, he will always appear. I will recall back those days where I spent my time with him. We always share our ideas in cooking and always create new dish together. He really taught me a lot about cooking and stuffs. He will always cook for me and etc. He really take good care of me. Sometimes, the things that he does makes me feel that he's even better then my dad, but I still love my dad.

Now, he's gone. Everyone is at lost as he is like the leader of the whole family. I mean my relatives. Every gathering, he is like the incharge, he takes good care of everything and anything. Now, out of a sudden, he's gone, whatever things that he did in the past, we're clueless and we feel so lost without him.

If I could have a wish, I wish that all my family members and all my beloved friends will never ever leave me. I just need my family and my friends.

Life's been hard for me for this month. Already gonna collapse from all the events, exams, studies, meetings and work. Worst? Uncle's death. Tell me, what am I supposed to do now... I feel so lost. I may seem happy and crazy, but deep down inside my heart I'm not at all. I wish I could pour out all my feelings, but I don't have the habit of telling others about my problems, as I do not like to trouble others.

Sometimes, pouring out your feelings may not be better too. Because, we can't change the fact, we only have one choice, which is to accept it.

I hate the fact that falling for someone which is impossible to be together as I know that I'm not the one in his heart. Worst, you have to act like nothing had happened but deep down inside it hurts like mad. But life still goes on, I just want all my friends to be happy and that's all.

I may seem cheerful and all, but I'm not. But what can I do? I'm always seen as a cheerful and crazy girl. I can't expect myself to show my emotions in front of my friends, as I don't want them to be worried of me.

Sometimes, I hate the feeling of always being alone, but I guess this fact will never change. Although I have lots of friends who care for me but I will always tell them I'm fine even though I'm not. Sometimes, I wish that there is a guy there for me to rely on. But I guess I'm too independent and my character will never get me a guy that I want at such age.

I might always say I just need friends, but sometimes when you're lonely, you will just wish that you could have a partner. To share and pour out things and be there for each other. Just hope that one fine day I will meet the right one.

Ps, I feel like a rebound. I feel so stupid. Because whenever you're lonely, I'm always there. But, that's the past. All those tactics don't work on me anymore. I'm not your teddy bear.

I'm glad that 2011 had been great for me except for this month. As I get to know a lot of awesome people at RP and during events and work. I really moved a lot and become even more independent. Looking back, I feel that I'm so stupid. Back then, I was quite an emotional girl. But, not now anymore, because after that broke up, it really taught me a lot. It taught me how to stay strong and always look on the brighter side.

Thank god, I had a broke up during my o'lvl period. Because it made a stronger Felicia. Sometimes, all things are possible, its just a matter of whether do you wanna do it or not. If you want something, just go for it, strive for it. Don't sit down there and think that it will come to you. Don't be a dumb, it will never ever happen. When you're sad, just rant and get over it. Because facts can't change. Don't live in the past, live for the future.

Poly, Sem 2 life

Hi readers! I'm finally back to the blogging world! I know I've not been blogging for a LONG LONG time! I'm absolutely so sorry about that as I'm VERY VERY busy.

I realised that I've changed a lot from Secondary to Poly.

During secondary school times, I'm always a very slack person. I will always skip remedial classes and skip some of my netball training and ignore and get myself not involved in the school activities. I'm a person without commitments at all.

After I get into Poly, I realised its time to change. I start to think about my future and how I wanna spend my life in RP. I don't know why, but suddenly I got a strong urge to be in the events industry in future. Therefore, I've chosen DIEM as my course and also went for elections in order to get into the JIVE Management Committee as I want to be more expose to the events industry and also would like to gain more experience before stepping into the industry.

After getting into the Jive MC, I realised that commitment is very important. I told myself is time to change, and perseverance is what I need. I've choose this path, so I can't blame or complain as its my choice in the first place. I didn't regret, I love my JIVE MC<3

I've been busying with my studies, event work, school events, meetings and etc. It's been a tiring journey for me but I'm not gonna give up. I enjoyed my life. Although its tiring but I still love what I am doing.

After getting into RP, I get to know a lot of new and awesome people that I never thought that I would met:) I get to know great friends during SEM 1 although the class wasn't really bonded. However, I'm glad that my SEM 2 classmates was awesome! UNITED is the word I can use to describe my class:) Although they always make fun of me, but I know they don't mean it:) I don't mind being a joke for others' entertainment:) As long as everyone is happy, I'm happy as well:)

Not forgetting, I get to know awesome people through events as well! I really love events a lot! I'm glad that I'm a part of Jive MC as well as DIEM. A place where you can know all the fun and awesome people!

Hell lots of photo below! I'm gonna introduce you readers the awesome people in RP that I've know so far:) There's more, sorry if I didn't include you in! TOO MANY ALR!! :)

PS: The photos are not in order, I just uploaded it randomly!

TADAHH~~~~ Y1S2 classmates!! In the photo: Peiling, Siling, Kyna, Germaine, Joycelyn, Ru Hua

Next, theYAO! Actually I don't even know how this guy came into my RP life and become my best buddy yea? HAHA! My first impression of him was " AH BENG", didn't thought that we could clique yea:)

AND JUSTIN! HAHA! Also don't know how he pop in! A boy who loves to dance and has his own views and ideas:)

Y1S2 peeps during marketing lesson! Tommy's lesson! our favourite lesson! Always have dress code! " Checked day" In the photo: Serene, Vincent, Khalis, Ashley, Salina, Clarissa, Michelle, Siling!

Si ling and kyna!!!! CAMWHORES SIAOS!! Always use siling's webcam to camwhore!!:)

Event's friends :):)

First up, Annabelle, aiya! she's like my first day friend in rp! TALKATIVE BITCH! But still love her yea!!!!

Next up, Cherjaine, hahaha! a cute little girl where i know through jive events! She's a nice and sweet girl yea:)

Next, Yao, said alr.

Next, Justin, also sais alr.

Next, Sky, hahaha! meet him through JIVE MC, got close after the planning for Jive's camp as we're both under logistic team. A guy who always call me NIANG!!! But he's nice to me:) haha

Next, Evan, my babygirl. Later then explain:)

Our so called " REUNION GROUP" Jace, Justin, Yao, Dillon and Cherjaine!

Jace, my boss!!! HAHA! A cute senior where I get to work with him during the preparation of Jive camp, haha! He's a funny guy! Cute thing about him! He cant multitask!!! hahaha

Dillon, I shall mention it later:)

Rest are mentioned.

Kyna, Meishan and Germaine!! :)

SEM 1 BESTIE!!!! HEHE! ZIYI, ADELYN, ANNABELLE!!!! ( Not forgetting, singchern and isabelle!!!!) <3

"Sudden ktv session" with cherjaine, justin and yao

Y1S1 classmates!! ZUL, DIANA, ANNABELLE :)

Y1s2; Ruhua, Germaine, Joycelyn and Candice!!!!

EXTRA SHAWN! A joker in my class, first impression of him " SIAO AHBENG/ SIAOKIA" haha but he is a nice and helpful guy yea:)

Y1S2's girls:)

Okay, time for dillon! DIDI! HAHA! A super cute and nice senior of mine where we have common interest which is SINGING!! or infact, scream and shout in ktv! HAHA! He's always very nice and help me in areas where i needed help! Didn't know we can clique and bitch well together:) Love ya:)<3

LESDON?! HAHA! JIVE SENIOR! SO TALL FOR WHAT?! haha:)

Time for my babygirl, Evangeline Poh<3 Didn't know that I still can get to meet a sister like her in RP! As I thought that poly life are full of people with 2 faces or with crazy attitudes! SHE IS THE FIRST GIRL WHICH I THINK IS SIMILAR AS ME!! We can study well together, play well together, get crazy together! I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT! Evan babygirl, you know I know:) too much common things:)<3

Y1S2: Vincent Tan! ALWAYS BULLY ME TGT WITH SHAWN! But, still a nice guy la:)

MICHELLE! SHY GIRL:)

BRYAN TEO! My BROTHER! Seeing his face for like 4 years already!!! but still, quite a good brother uh. Miss those time tgt with wilson, singwei aven and all!!

PEILING! CRAZY GIRL THAT DOES CRAZY THINGS WITH ME<3

CRAZY GIRLS!!!

Marky ONG!! HAHA Crazy and funny guy of JIVE MC!

JIVE MC<3

Isabelle, my baby yea! Always get crazy tgt and get serious at work tgt<3

Ps, if I have miss anyone of my beloved out, I'm so so so sorry!!!! I'm so so so busy that I don't have the time to upload everyone's faces!!! Forgive me ok! I still love you people!

Between, just to add on. I've realised that I live for myself, not for others. Be yourself, don't change for others. If they like you, they like you for who you are. :) Sometimes, I guess I'm too independent for long, I no longer know how to depend on others or even share my problems and secrets with others. There are positive and negative side. But, just move on with life! I will always tell myself that there are always people there for me and awesome people around me:)